Soon. Soon, I'll get to leave this job.
And she's back.
20110630
20110206
Happy birthday to me...
Twenty six.
A big change from last year. I'm now the EM alliance leader. I'm not in Re-Awakened.
But somethings stay the same. I'm still with Carinelle. I'm still Atamahara. I'm still Matari.
Last year I had a small party, with enough people to have conversations, but not so many that anyone got overwhelmed.
This year was just Carinelle and me. I hired someone to bring in good food. A waiter to serve. Bubbles.
It was nice. We talked. About what it would take to feel grown up, what our plans are. About being rational, and respecting emotions. She still hasn't visited her father's clan. I still don't run enough fleets.
Maybe we'll be grown up next year.
A big change from last year. I'm now the EM alliance leader. I'm not in Re-Awakened.
But somethings stay the same. I'm still with Carinelle. I'm still Atamahara. I'm still Matari.
Last year I had a small party, with enough people to have conversations, but not so many that anyone got overwhelmed.
This year was just Carinelle and me. I hired someone to bring in good food. A waiter to serve. Bubbles.
It was nice. We talked. About what it would take to feel grown up, what our plans are. About being rational, and respecting emotions. She still hasn't visited her father's clan. I still don't run enough fleets.
Maybe we'll be grown up next year.
20110112
Can I leave behind my naïvity of youth?
War. Meh. It's not a good war. It's pretty dull. The enemy have no assets to attack, and have hired sufficient neutral scouts that they know the status of all the systems around. They don't undock without local superiority, and they dock up quickly if their scouts detect any coordinated response to their undocking. They keep picking off people in ones and twos. We're being stupid, but I guess that our pilots are learning. We've had fewer stupid losses in week two.
Carinelle's been hiding from people again. I think she's still trying to fit in after a couple of months away. Gradient has been hiring new pilots and she might be feeling like she doesn't know everyone again. I'm going to try to get her out socialising again.
Elsebeth got podded. She's been looking a little morose recently. I've tried again to convince her to go to Matar and spend time with her husband. Gradient could survive a couple of weeks without her, and I think she could use a little joy in her life. Perhaps everyone could.
I've felt like I've had to exercise a little authority recently. Asking people to behave; Telling people to pull their heads in; Threatening to have them removed from the alliance.
I don't like it.
But there are things I won't allow to happen to this alliance without trying to stop them.
Carinelle's been hiding from people again. I think she's still trying to fit in after a couple of months away. Gradient has been hiring new pilots and she might be feeling like she doesn't know everyone again. I'm going to try to get her out socialising again.
Elsebeth got podded. She's been looking a little morose recently. I've tried again to convince her to go to Matar and spend time with her husband. Gradient could survive a couple of weeks without her, and I think she could use a little joy in her life. Perhaps everyone could.
I've felt like I've had to exercise a little authority recently. Asking people to behave; Telling people to pull their heads in; Threatening to have them removed from the alliance.
I don't like it.
But there are things I won't allow to happen to this alliance without trying to stop them.
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